Months = Months + 4; change = true; realise = false;

A semester has passed since I had posted last. A lot of unforgettable things have happened during the course of these four months. Life has been a perfect mixture of emotions. It has been a blend of happiness, sadness, disappointments, pain. My learning process has not stopped though. The last course I took for Master's has taught me the basics about which I should have learnt during long back. I have learnt from people more than from books or classes. It is hard to digest that people can make certain very important decisions about their lives in a matter of few months. What a few months can do to one's life is really amazing. There used to be a time when I totally believed that a few months weren't very important and could hardly make an impact in someone's life. Seeing things before my eyes, I can't pretend not to acknowledge that anymore. How much have I changed in the past few months? Not much. And probably that is a reason I expect others not to change. I would have to admit that this was probably the least exciting semester I have had so far in the course of my study. When reality strikes, it strikes pretty hard. When life is not so much fun anymore I should probably do something different to revive my fun filled life and bring back the true smile that I seem to be losing. To many I don't seem the same. I really wonder why they feel so. I guess I lose my temper more easily nowadays. I sure can't see that myself. Enjoyment in life probably starts to dimnish with time. Not knowing what to do I am just going with time. If there are any changes in me that I am failing to notice it sure should be because of the recent happenings in my life. I probably should not try hard not to change. The change in me was probably what was supposed to happen to me naturally. Afterall change is permanent. Whether I change or not I am still searching for something that I have been feeling is missing. I wish I realise soon what it is. I wish life is blessed with fun and joy and is always interesting. I wish I smile back like usual. :( Trying to bring back my old smile which people miss now, here I blog..