India Trip

I guess this is one thing I wanted to write ever since I left US. I cannot believe it has been over two months now and I am again enrolled for courses in school and staring at programs for my thesis. One thing I am happy about is that I almost did everything I wanted to do and made sure I got things that I missed when I was here. Its never enough but still it was great. Though really busy with a lot of stuff at home I still managed to sneak out of home and had my own time to enjoy. I made sure I saw most of my "special" friends though I missed a few. The closeness with a few of my special friends is gone. It is not how it was. I guess that is how life goes. People change with time. They are not the same anymore. Maybe I have to change too or maybe just grow up. :) Apart from the apparent change in my body shape people said I hadn't changed much which for some reason I took as a compliment. Though everything went fine and I would call it a successful trip, I had an incomplete feeling. Gone are those days when I really enjoyed what I did. Whatever I did now I felt were things I forced onto myself. I didn't really enjoy it as much as I wanted to. I really hate myself for not knowing what I heading to. I don't know what I like or what I want to be. How long can I be like this? I don't know. Its probably just best to go with the flow without expecting anything. This probably is how I am destined to be. I should just live and enjoy every moment of my life which I shall always do. And until I really enjoy blogging, here I shall blog.